I’m so tired of feeling like this is all I am. Since quarantine has started, all I’ve done is lock myself in my room unless I have to go to work. I feel so depressed all day and I don’t even want to pull one off because I want it, but at this point it’s because I need it. I need the instant gratification that my brain releases in the form of dopamine and serotonin because that’s all I have to keep me from loading one into the chamber… I just want to be happy again… is that too much to ask..?
I’m so tired of feeling like this is all I am. Since quarantine has started, all I’ve done is lock myself in my room unless I have to go to work. I feel so depressed all day and I don’t even want to pull one off because I want it, but at this point it’s because I need it. I need the instant gratification that my brain releases in the form of dopamine and serotonin because that’s all I have to keep me from loading one into the chamber… I just want to be happy again… is that too much to ask..?